Never Again My Friend
What we did was fun
But no more
Never again
I didn't like the feeling
I didn't like being helpless
Seeing you, how you were, scared me
Seeing myself was horrible
If something would have happened to you
I would have died
I put you in the situation
But couldn't control the consequences
I hate the memories I now have
They haunt me
They torment my mind
The "what ifs" are driving me insane
I feel like I betrayed you and our friendship
You are supposed to be able to trust me
And feel safe around me
I would die for you
But I put you in a situation where I couldn't protect you
I had to sit back and watch you fall apart
I was scared out of my mind for myself
But mostly for you
I can never look at you the same again
I don't know how you feel about the situation
But I'm disgusted at myself
I allowed things to get out of control
We could have been killed
I'm sorry in every possible way
I just don't know what to say
I wish I could take back yesterday
And keep things the way they were
I need to talk to you
I'm scared
Please help me
