You Mattered To Me
Somewhere...there was someone dreaming of your smile.
There was someone out there...
who found your presence so worthwhile.
To me...you were the only thing that matttered--
if you only knew how much you did...you'd be flattered.
Was the love I gave you not enough?
I know I should've told you more often...
becuase now I know being lonely can hurt so much.
I would've cried just to have washed away all of your pain with my tears...
just to have been able to drown all your suffering and your fears.
I would've done anything to have been by your side...
just to have been that shoulder to lean on as you cried.
I saw you as much more than a human being...
but I could never express how I really felt....
If you only knew how much I loved you...it went far beyond believing.
If only I could have that chance again to show you more love...
then maybe you'd be here with me now...instead of up above.
When you lost all faith...I wish I could've turned things around,
to have showed you how important you were--
even for a moment to have let you be proud.
The loneliness seems to be taking over...because sometimes
I feel like I can hear you breathing and see you watching over me.
It feels like an angel above me flying.
I can feel your pain.. feel you calling out for me
and I just wish I could help.
I close my eyes to be with you...
and the fact that I can't just makes me feel like dying.
I just hope you can hear me when I pray for you at night...
and wish upon your star that to me has always shined so bright.
Now I lay this letter before your grave.
My heart's aching with sadness...but I'm going to be brave.
I guess this is really it now.
I have to learn how to let you go and say goodbye.
I still have to leave with lingering thoughts in my head,
left wondering why....
I just came here to let you know...
how hard it's going to be to let you go...
and just to let you realize how much I loved you
and to me how much you meant.
And, through God's hands...this letter will be sent.
