i love you but ....
sometimes i sit in my room at night
and all i think of is you
the way you said goodbye
after all we had been through.
it saddens me to know how you feel
How you do not care for me at all
and how my love for you is real.
The phone calls we made
the amazing talks we had
they just all seemed to fade.
you told me you loved me
and that we would always be together
and there was no end for us
but then you forgot me and went to her.
And as i lie there sad in the dark
i think of how it used to be
Before we were a couple
before there was even a you and me.
i think of how we were best friends
but then out of nowhere
i saw you for the first time
you were not the boy who was beside me
you were there!!
And at that moment i knew
you were there to stay in my heart.
then i think of how you are not here with me
and how we screwed it all up
how we are not even friends anymore
and how after all the fights and make ups... we just gave up.
Then out of nowhere as i am in my bed
My thoughts of you are happy
and no more are dead
a smile comes to my face.
I think of the way you meant it when you said you loved me
and how happy you were over simple things
Over the lil things like...
the sound of my laugh over the phone
when you did something to cheer me up.
And i think of how lucky i am
to have had you love me.
and how you know you were at one time
lucky to have my love too.
Then as i fall asleep
i don't dream of us together again
I don't dream of us fighting either
I dream of the good times we spent together
As friends.
As we were... when we were most happy
and when we truly loved each other.
