LUKE
How ironic that I write this two months after...
After the hurt has calmed,
after the feelings have dimmed
and the wounds have begun to heal.
So why is it that your voice over the phone
still causes me
to smile helplessly?
Why is it that as we speak,
I plan the next time
I can see you?
Why can I not sleep?
If I could take back every minute of pain
I've caused you,
I would.
I'm sorry.
You are one of the most beautiful people
I've ever met.
Without knowing,
you taught me how I deserve to be treated.
You introduced me to how good life could be.
Thank you for that.
I missed you.
So I put on your shirt when I need to cry,
because you remind me who I am.
There will always be feelings.
What if?...
But what is meant to be will be.
You will always be
my sun on a rainy day.
My first truth.