Affected Me

By: Anonymous Web Poet

I swear it all never affected me -
Being molested by a girl
When I was a small child,

Being rejected by the
First girl that I loved,
Being tormented growing up for being
Different.

No, it never affected me at all.
So why is it so hard for me to
Trust
Love
Feel
Be happy?

Why am I always
Looking over my shoulder?
Why are my children the only ones
I think will never hurt me?

Why was it so hard to believe that my woman or
Any woman
Could love me?
Me?

Am I
Worthy of Love?

Where is all of the
Anger
Hurt
Viciousness
Agressiveness
Coming from?

Maybe I need to let go,
Maybe I NEED to let go!
No, I don't need to do anything because

All of that
Never
Affected me.

It's normal to sit home alone
in... The Dark