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I hate you for what you've caused in my life.
I've broken some laws.
I hate you for this unbearable pain in my chest,
in where it's slain.
I hate you for my unhappiness, which has caused all this mess.
I hate you for not thinking of me, with her, you I see,
I hate you for being in my head,
and all the words and lies you've said.
I hate you for my endless daydreams which become tearful teams.
I hate you for your periodical calls
after which my eyes become waterfalls.
I hate you for the once-again lies you've told,
and stupid me, I believed them, even though they're old,
I hate you for this life I now live,
when I always thought we'd be together and thank and give.
I hate you for when I grieve, not one day or two or three.
I hate you for many things, for when I wait for the phone to ring.
I hate you for all this love I have for you,
for I never thought this relationship would actually be through.
I hate you for leaving me,
especially when everyone told me to look and see.
I hate you for me still wanting you,
and for me still believing and hoping one day we'll say, I do.
I hate you because I still love you.
Alex: I know you left, and you may not return,
and I have sorta moved on. Every now and then I think about
if you will ever come back, and we will be happy, kinda like
we use to be, but we will actually trust each other
this time around?! I know I did you wrong A LOT, and I am
soooo sorry, you don't know how much?! But you weren't all
innocent either? Either way, I still love you sooo much,
and I really miss you!