My Only Love That I Lost
I take one look at you,
And my heart starts to race.
You hold me,
And I never want you to let go.
You kiss me
And a million fireworks go off inside me.
I think of you day and night.
I look out the window,
Waiting for you to drive by.
I cry when I sit alone.
I dream about you, you are so real, I wake up
Sad and alone,
And I cry.
I sit and can still smell your cologne
On the couch.
Oh how I miss your eyes,
The way you would look in my eyes
And I would get scared-
Because it felt like you could see in me.
And I felt like you knew me,
Like no one else did.
Everytime I see you I cringe inside,
Oh how you look so wonderful!
I urge for you to be with me.
I want you so much, it hurts.
I cry so hard, my head starts to ache.
I cry so much, I can't cry anymore.
I wonder what you think about,
I wonder why you don’t want me,
I wonder why you threw me away,
I wonder why we kissed,
Why you said yes,
Why you loved me for so long,
Why you gave up so easily?
I remember everything we did,
Everything you said.
The way I always pushed you away
How you always came back.
The way you wanted me so much
The way I wanted you, but I never showed it.
I sit at the computer,
Waiting for you to talk to me,
But I give up,
And try to talk to you first.
I feel like I am pushing you farther away…
With every word I say.
I feel like you're slipping through my fingers,
Like butter.
I grip to hold on to you tighter,
But you just keep sliding.
I feel if I don’t tell you how I feel,
I'll lose you forever.
I urge for one more touch,
One more kiss.
God how I would give to please you,
Give you anything you want,
Just to be with you.
I'd give up the world for you,
I'd give up my life for you.
You don’t have to say anything.
Even as much as I want you to.
I want to know how you feel
I'm hopeless without you.
I can't go on.
I need you. Why don’t you need me?
Why don’t you want me anymore?
Why did you give up?
I wish I had another chance,
Just one.
I miss eveything about you and what we had.
I think to myself,
Maybe he will come back,
Maybe he still wants me,
Still needs me.
It drives me crazy.
I can't think straight.
All I see and think and feel
Is you.
I would turn back time,
So that I could change the past
So maybe we would still be together.
I would give you all of me
I would give you the world
To spend one more minute with you.
I dream of us together, you holding me.
Us kissing;
Us never being apart;
And now that we are apart I miss you.
And ache for you- and only you.
Do you still want me?
Would you give me another chance?
Questions that run through my head all the time.
I ponder what you would say.
I long to be with you.
No one else
I walk behind you and can
Smell your cologne.
You don’t know I'm there, and I want to cry.
I want to run up to you and kiss you
But I know I will start to cry,
And you will push me away.
I won't move on,
I can't move on.
I won't give up,
I don’t want anyone else but you~
Remember that.
I will do anything to get you back.
You're everything I ever wanted.
Let me be with you
~Rachel
