I Wish I Could
I wish I could hate you.
Hate you with a passion, but I know
that no matter how many times I say
I hate you it, will never be true.
The truth is I once loved you with all my heart
but now you hurt me so badly
I just want you and me
to stay a thousand miles apart.
I wish I could change evrything about me.
I feel like, if I could, I wouldn't feel so much misery
and everything in my life would become so easy.
Truth is, the only thing I know how to be is a not-good-enough me.
I wish I could keep all my feelings inside
but I know all that will lead to is suicide.
So, now I am forced to put all my feelings down on paper.
And the only way my feelings can be said
is if they are on this piece of paper to be read.
