He belongs to someone else
by unlucky lover
I work in a restaurant and that is where I met the most gorgeous man I'd ever seen. When I saw him walk in, my heart started racing very fast. That's when I knew I was in trouble. My friends said that he was married because he came in one night when I wasn't working and he was with a woman and he was wearing a ring. Well, I though that couldn't be true... I saw him at least twice a week and he was never wearing a ring. So finally I got up the courage and asked him about that woman. Of course, he said she was a friend and I believed him. (I mean, he is an officer of the law). I didn't straight-up ask him if he was married, because I really didn't want him to be. So we started meeting in public places- outside of night clubs, at gasoline stations, talking, flirting, getting to know each other... and I fell in love. Believe me, I am not even the type to fall in love.
By the time I found out he was married, I was hooked on him. I needed to see him, I needed to talk to him, I needed to touch him just so that I could breathe easily, sleep better, and smile for no reason at all.
When I did find out about his marriage, I was devastated. How can the man whom I know was made for me, belong to someone else? I've always been a strong believer that there is a perfect person for everyone, but what happens when you meet your perfect person and he belongs to someone else? It made me want to give up on love.
Afraid by Lily Tchen made me think that if I don't let go, now it'll be a lot harder to let go later on. When this realization hit me, I cried. I told myself to get over him, but it's as if my heart tells me, "It took you 23 years to find this man and now you just want to pretend you never met him?" It feels impossible.
This has just happened recently. I am still in love with him, but I realize he is not for me, for I came into his life too late. I still see him, but from a distance. If I'm close to him, I know I will want to touch him. I don't have a love life. I'm an attractive girl, I do get asked out a lot, but I'm not easily attracted to just any guy. I try to listen to my heart at all times, but look where that got me.
Love. Love the moment you're living. Love the person you're with. Don't waste time or tears on someone who doesn't belong in your life. Open your eyes before you open your heart because once they're in there, it's impossible to get them out.
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