Our relationship was mostly great at first. We always did everything together. He was very kind and loving, or so I thought.
Slowly things began to change between us. I would never see him anymore. It was rare when I did and he was acting very strangely. Eventually I found out that my boy he had seen him and his ex together and that all the times when he wasnít with me, he was with her. I never knew things were gonnaí end up like that. I had liked him since the 5th grade.
He gave no reasons for doing this to me. I didnít speak to him again until 3 months later, and we havenít seen each other since then. We were at the high school, talking. I moved away and I havenít heard from him. I heard through someone else that heís very, very sick now and he doesnít know what to do.
I realized I couldnít live with the pain anymore so I had to move on. I tried to, but years of love arenít easy to get rid of. I still think about what couldíve been. Iím still in love with him, but he doesnít get it because heís a child who doesnít know what he wants and he needs to learn the hard way. The LovePoetry poem that helped me was If Your Heart Were Made Of Paper
by Casey Draheim. It really got to me.
I am single now, but I guess sometimes itís better this way because at least in a small way love canít hurt me. I heard that heís been asking about me and says he really needs to see me. Iíd rather not see him or talk to him. I still love him but I canít have him because Iím afraid Iíd get hurt again.
Ladies and fellas out there: Choose wisely because you can get hurt when you least expect it. Always look for some who loves you, not for someone you love because all they will end up doing is taking advantage of your love and they will hurt you even more. Also remember; what goes around, comes around.