At first, my boyfriend and I had a perfect relationship that all of my friends envied. They would ask their boyfriends, "Why can't we be like them?" We were so happy. I fell in love with him the first time we met and I knew he loved me too. We were like, the perfect couple. I loved him more than life itself.
One day he lost my trust because he lied to me and it seemed that no matter what he did, I just couldn't forget. All I would do is try to protect my heart. He tried to make up for it and the truth is he did, but I just couldn't forget. I treated him really, really badly, even though it killed me inside.
All he would tell me is, "I love you and I'm sorry. I would never do anything to hurt you again." We were together for about 2 years and still, I couldn't trust him. We broke up and I tried to get back with him because I loved him so much that I would do anything to get him back. But it seemed like he had changed into someone I didn't know. I was really sad, I cried every day. We stopped talking for a long time. I told myself that if I would ever get the chance to be with him again, I would treat him well and I will show him that I would never do anything to lose him. We got back together a year later, but he was not the same person I fell inlove with. He treated me wrongly. He would make me cry every day, but I wouldn't care because I loved him. I just kept telling myself, "It will get better soon. It has to because he told me he still loves me." Little did I know it was a lie. Two months later, he broke up with me. I kept begging him not to leave but he just didn't care. The last thing he told me was, "I don't love you." That just broke my heart. I just thought, "How can he do this to me? How can the love we had for eachother at one point, just go away?"
The LovePoetry poem that helped me was Bruised For Life
by Biana Yanovsky. Deep in my heart, I know I am stronger and I know you can't really lose what you never had. I've moved on and my life is going great. At time, I do miss him but then I think of everything I was going through with him. I know I don't ever want to go through it again.
When in love, don't have pride, but know your limits.