How do you?
by Jaime M Alsager
How do you still haunt me?
We haven't been together for months,
But your words still whisper in my ears.
I swear I can still feel your touch.
Your eyes, your smile, they still haunt me, too.
The breathtaking way you looked at me, my love, that ran so true.
How can I still remember all the good and the bad?
How can I still long for a love I'm not even sure I ever had?
How could you whisper sweet nothings, then violently turn on me?
How could you stand tall and proud, while I cowered at your feet?
How could you leave me alone for days on end,
Then walk through our door, and expect me to pretend?
How could you run around, while I stayed truthfully at home?
How could you walk away, without a care in the world?
I'd like to know why I still have to remember each day,
Why when I look at our daughter, I can still see your face.
How can I love her so much, but feel anger toward you?
She is my sun, my life, she's my everything true.
Why did it have to come to this? I wanted so much more.
Then one day I had to decide, had to show you the door.
Making that choice was hard, but I could take NO MORE,
All I ever wanted was my heart picked up off the floor.
Now I'm moving on, for I had to realize
Your ways would not change, nor would your lies.
Your heart you could not give, even though I gave mine to you.
You could not love me completely, so I had to say, "We're through."