Too Close For Comfort
Too many emotions i feel at once.
my heart beats so fast
that i fear it will shatter.
I just want to stay in the dark and be all alone
and feel it numb my broken soul.
Why am i feeling like this,
where the need to cry is all i want?
To let it escape from my body
but i am tired of crying,
of drowning in my own self-pity.
The days and nights are becoming too confusing
as i toss and turn and struggle with sleep.
Why is it when i am around you
all i want is to feel your arms around me
to hear your soothing voice, comforting
as i cry unshamelessly?
I want to be close to you and know "you"
but i am scared, so i become distant
and feel the walls going back into place.
Everytime i am alone
my mind goes to him and i cry inside,
wishing it would go away.
It's already too long to still feel this pain.
I have no one to talk to
and tell them that i still hurt inside.
I can't tell you because i know i can get too close to you.
for now, i am already frightened by what i feel for you
because i know you will never return it.