Survivor's Guilt
Facing myself through these
bouts with controversial pain
Forever dealing with a life
that will forever be changed
How do I truly live contentedly
while feeling guilty that I have survived
Left with a silhouette of memories
of when you were once alive
How do I forgive myself
when you had so much more to lose
Intoxicating myself with anxiety
at the very thought of you
Not a single day goes by that
I do not dwell upon your death
Afflicted with grievous guilt that
I witnessed your last remaining breath
