To a Secret Love
It wasn’t “love at first sight” as they say.
I was shy, lost in my own little world,
And though you were friendly, you were intimidating too!
I admired your character, but that’s where it lay.
I came to know you better as time past
And with knowledge, love blossomed softly, silently,
A love that will burn till the end of our course,
A love that will sleep till our lot is cast.
We have so much in common, so much the same,
Most of all, a passion for God and His word.
That’s what first drew me to you: your love for Christ.
You have a walk with Him, like few I could name.
You are a living testimony to me of God’s transforming grace,
An encouragement that I, too, can rise to the high places
And pour out my life in a torrent of self-abnegating love,
A revelation to all of a life where sin has no trace.
You cannot know the stifled longings, to be with you,
To share with you, to talk with you, to be close friends!
When you were sick or lonely, how many times
I wished to comfort you, to send you a card, something special,
If only you knew…
You only know me, the shallow, shy, outer “me,”
Not the real woman’s heart beneath the surface.
Sometimes, rare moments, you caught a glimpse
Deep in my heart, of what I could truly be.
I have much to learn, many changes to make.
The Refiner’s fire must burn deeper and brighter,
Purging the dross of selfishness and making me
A virtuous woman, for there’s so much at stake:
My influence upon you, the man I love,
Upon those around me, upon the family I may one day have,
May be a savor of life or death; may it be
A candle, a flame to light the way to the throne above.
I love you, to the depths of my soul, forever and always.
I do not ask for your love in return-- I couldn’t.
I feel so unworthy, so plain, so immature, so shy,
But I will love you forever and always, to the end of my days!