Lose It

By: Danielle M. Fitzpatrick

I sit here in this body,
in this life, this world,
trying to be me
and be accepted for who I am.
People look at me
thinking they know me,
not really knowing
the person I am inside
or the feelings and emotions
I have to hide.
But what they don't know
is that I'm struggling inside.
I don't know what to do
or what I want for myself.
I can never satisfy myself
with the person I am or how I appear.
I hate my body
and the way I look.
When I tell anyone they simply say
"You're crazy! You're gorgeous!"
but I don't see it that way.
I know it's not healthy
but it's trapped in my mind.
Soon, I'm gonna lose it,
I don't know what will happen
but for now I'll hide,
hide it all from the world.
Pretend I'm happy with myself
and that everything's OK.