I Guess I'll Just Leave it Alone...
What more was I supposed to do?
After all, I'm not the one who threw away all that we've been through.
Years of Hell and tears that sometimes still haunt me.
I remember when you used to make me feel like I was the one
with whom you would forever be.
Now I know it was never anything I said or did wrong.
To get over this will take alot of support from friends,
and not just uplifting lyrics I heard in some song.
Looking in the mirror was so hard to do; especially when I saw
the horror of losing you slide down my cheek onto a small patch
over my cringing heart.
Imagine now how hard it is for me to act as though we never met
and walk now so far apart.
Once someone said to me that you're only allowed three great loves;
but what happens when you had all three in one love of your life?
It means that you will go eternally never allowed to remove
the cutting of the knife.
The pain one day dulls but don't be stupid enough to think it ever
goes away.
You go on living and find new loves but the scars will be your
reminder and always stay.
I once wrote this letter just asking for it to be the way it once was.
In reality I learned love will not be told who it hurts or what it does.
Maybe one day you'll care again and come back your own, until then
I'll pick up my pride, leave the past as it it is, and I guess
I'll just leave it alone...
No matter how great and no matter how far I have still not found
someone as special as my Janar
