I Should Have Realized
I spent too much time loving you,
because I thought you loved me,
I spent so much time caring about you,
that I was just too blind to see.
You never really loved me,
and probably never cared,
I thought we'd always be together,
thoughts of being without you made me scared.
You told me so many lies,
I was dumb enough to believe,
I should have listened to my friends and family,
when they told me I should leave.
But, I made up excuses,
kinda like the ones you made,
When starting from the very beginning,
I should have known- I was being played.
But, again, I just didn't want to believe it.
To me, everything seemed so right,
Then we started to argue alot,
but I told myself, "everyone fights."
But, then came all the lies,
and excuses even more,
By now I should have taken a hint,
I should have turned and walked out the door.
So, now I found out you cheated,
that's okay, I cheated, too,
But see, when I did,
it made me realize how much I loved you.
I bought you things, I gave you money,
but most important... I gave you my heart,
Only to have it taken out,
and eventually torn apart.
I never really fell in love,
although I thought it would be nice,
I should have listened to my friends,
and taken my parents' advice.
But, it's okay, I'm stronger now,
I've learned from my mistakes,
Now I'll keep myself from falling in love,
no matter what it takes.
