Life in Secrecy
In the beginning, it was nothing.
We talked and it didn't mean much.
Now, it has grown and grown.
Now, there is a lot more there than I had ever expected.
Every day I look for you.
And when I don't see you, I worry.
I told myself that I wasn't going to let it go this far,
But it has, and now I regret.
I regret not telling you how I felt in the beginning.
Maybe it would be different if you knew.
I can't tell you now.
Would it ruin everything?
If you knew, would you talk to me?
Would you acknowledge my existence?
Would you give me the time of day,
Or even an occasional flash of a smile?
For all those reasons
I keep my love and desire to myself.
Maybe someday I'lll be able to tell you.
But for now, I live in secrecy.
