why this way.......
I met him at a party that my mother threw for my little sister. Both of my best friends where there... he kept looking in our direction, but it wasn't clear who he was looking at. You see, it was dark and all we could see was his face. Two nights later, my phone rang and it was his 8 year-old cousin, whom I babysat. She asked me if I wanted to talk to him and I said, "Yes," right away. What a big mistake. He made me fall in love with his caring words and his way of always being there.
One night, when I was taking care of his cousin, I decided to try to pick her brain to see what she knew about him. Unfortunately, what I found out was not good. She told me he was involved in some gangs and that he also did drugs. Later, she told me that his girlfriend was very nice and pretty, of course I thought she was talking about me, but then out of the blue she said, "Yeah, his girlfriend comes over to my house every other day." I had to pause and try to let the information make sense inside my brain. When it finally sank in, it hurt so much. I couldn't believe it. What happened and since when? I felt betrayed and used. He must have laughed about it with all of his friends. Still, I did not accept it. I couldn't, it would hurt too much. It took me some time to realize that love hurts.
When I was depressed one night I got on the computer and searched for love poems and found LovePoetry.com. Somehow, I just clicked on the poem and it helped me to understand so much. The poem was REVENGE... by Tarah* Stover and it gave almost all of the details of my relationship. It really helped me understand what my feelings were. I immediately called him and broke up with him. After a lot of yelling and many tears, I decided not to have anything to do with him. It was for the best.
Since then, I have taken better care of my heart and accepted what has happened and why it happened. Now I am much happier and have embraced the new person I am with- a guy who does know how to treat me.
My advice to others is to know when to stop a bad relationship and to realize that, yeah love hurts, but it doesn't have to hurt forever.
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