The kind of relationship I had was emotionally and mentally abusive. He was not able to trust me and we didnít know if we were meant to be.
I gave him forgiveness. I love him too much to not forgive him. Nothing that went on in our relationship was just his fault. I was partly to blame.
At first I didnít want to own up to it. I reacted in a way that did not make things better for either of us. I screamed and yelled and threw a couple of things. Now, as I am writing this, I am feeling more and more ashamed for the way I reacted. I know I made a mistake. I am just glad that my mistake didn't cost me my relationship.
I forgave him a little over a month ago. I realized after we sat down and talked, that he had a problem with trusting people. I can understand that. I let him know that I will always be there for him as long as he is willing to let me. The poem that helped me is a LovePoetry poem called I am Always Here by lori beth whitenight.
After a couple of months of long conversations, things are better than they were before. We talk more, and when things donít feel right we talk about them instead of keeping them bottled up inside.
Think before you react. Don't let your emotions take over your mind.
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