I wish we could still be!!
He and I have known each other for 7 years. We started dating after we lost our first true loves. I told him I loved him after the first few months and he told me he would love me forever. I loved being around him because I knew he would never let anything happen to me. He was so sweet to me and always treated me like I was supposed to be treated.
About 5 months into our relationship, his friends were calling me and telling me that he was cheating on me with another girl. I know I shouldn't have believed them, but I did. Another time, I was out of town with my aunt who had just suffered a massive heart attack, and I got a call from a close friend saying he had a big hicky on his neck and she knew I couldn't have done it because I was so far away. I came home about 3 days later and I asked him about it and he told me it happened while he was playing football. That's when I knew he had cheated on me. I forgave him and we still dated.
I have a friend who is like a brother to me and I have known him for almost 4 years. I would never do anything with him because I loved my boyfriend too much to do that to him. One night I was talking to him on the phone and he told me he loved me. I didn't know what to do, so I called my boyfriend and told him what my friend had said to me. I had to be truthful with him, I have never lied to him and I never would. I love him with everything I've got. I lost my first love and I really didn't want to lose him too. He told me that he was getting a bad vibe and didn't know how to respond. I told him that I would never cheat on him because I have been cheated on before and I didn't want to put him through what I went through. All he could say was that he was sorry and he had to let me go forever.
All I could do that night was cry. My little sister was there to calm me down and tell me what I told her when her first love left her on his birthday; she told me no guy was worth my tears because I have always told her that. I really didn't understand why it all ended that way. I still love him with all my heart and always will. The LovePoetry poem I Will Always Love You by Amber Ann Bibler reminded me of him. I wish I could make him realize I am the one for him and no other girl could love him like I did. All I can do is wait and see what God has in store for me, pray and see if he will come back to me. I would wait a lifetime for him if I knew he loved me like he said he did.
I have talked to him since, but all we do is argue. Sometimes I wish we'd never dated and stayed friends, but I'm glad we did because I got to know the real side of him, the side I fell in love with. I write him emails all the time but all he tells me is that he never got them. I don't know what to do besides wait. He will always be a part of me.
Make sure that when you love someone, they love you back. If they don't treat you like they're supposed to, you don't need them. I have been in love twice and I know it hurts. Please don't make the mistake I did- you will regret it forever. Always remember: no guy or girl is worth your tears!!! I hope ya'll have better luck than I did.
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