The kind of relationship that my boyfriend and I had was what you would call "perfect." We never got into any arguments and everything that was said or done between us was so great.
We were together for almost a whole year. He had a previous girlfriend before me. She was a real show. She never knew how to leave him alone... not even after a year! It got to the point where I didnít talk to him as much as I used to and we started to lose touch. I still loved him so very much; he was still my world, but something was missing and we both knew it when the first argument came into our relationship as our 9 month anniversary came up.
The reasons given for our separating and drifting apart were very unacceptable. He said I was in a whole different town (only 20 miles away) and he said that I didnít care for what anyone wanted except me. I couldnít believe he had made that come out of his mouth because I had always put him before anyone elseÖ even my family and friends! I made most of the trips to see him. He did however; make a few trips to see me. I just couldnít understand how he could do this to me after all this time.
I read the LovePoetry poem Wanting You Back!!
by Brenda Annabelle and it really got to me. That is definitely how I have been feeling since we separated.
I tried so hard to call him and talk to him about everything. I bought him cards, candy, clothes, poems, and I even made him cd's with all of our songs on them. I also tried to go visit him.
Since losing the most important person in my life, I have still tried to call him and be there for him and itís been almost 3 months since the break-up. He has met someone new and itís someone who isnít me! She was supposed to be my friend... not date my boyfriend! I still talk to him every once in a while, but I try not to because he still tells me he loves me and he still tells me he misses me. Itís very hard to hear those caring words when I know that they arenít going to change how things are. I will never have him back... thatís one thing Iím sure of. We will just have to settle for being friends.
When you're helplessly in love, and sure that itís true; when he's all you're thinking of and youíve got nothing else to do, just do yourself a favor and think the whole thing through. Ask yourself one question... is he thinking of you too?