It was a good relationship for the first 2 months and the last 4 were terrible. I just wanted to get away from all of it.
We just kept fighting about anything and everything. It was terrible. He always yelled at me in school and everyone would stare at me when I was crying. They all had the same looks on their faces like, “Why do you take it?”
He said that I always started our fights. I won't pin it all on him because some fights were caused by me, but at least 85% of the time, he would start it. He would show up at my friend’s house and scream at me.
At my birthday party, my friend had told my brother and his wife and my sister about the way my boyfriend had been treating me and I had to talk to all of them. At first, I was mad at my friend, but as I thought about it, I wanted to tell them myself but just couldn't get up the nerve, so to this day I thank my friend for that. My family and friends made me realize that I could do better and I admit I did deserve better. I just loved him so much. To me, at the time, he could do no wrong. They also made me realize that one day if the fights got worse, he would probably hit me with no hesitation and I hadn’t realized that.
The poem that helped me out the most was
Raw Emotion by Jessica Marie Franke on LovePoetry.com.
He told me that he had changed, so I was going to get back with him. But we didn't date again. We just talked for about 3 weeks and I realized that what he had done to me in the past hasn't changed and we would not have a good relationship in the future. We have gotten back together several times since, but never dated again.
If you love him and fight a lot and think he might hit you, leave him; you deserve better. If he hits you, do something! Don't just let it go and pretend it didn't happen. If they do it once, they'll do it again for sure.
