Pain after Love
by Jocelyn Clare McMahon
A long time ago I smiled at you
It was only yesterday I despised you
But now I think I have fallen for you again
Or is my heart playing a game of pretend?
It feels like only yesterday
When you walked out the door with little to say
Words like "I didn't mean to hurt you"
And "I didn't mean to love you"
The tears, anger, jealousy...I've felt it all
but no feelings like this before
I managed to say I forgive and forget
But neglected to remind you what you once said
The sounds of heartbreak
What noise and pain it makes-
I feel it even to this day
But hide them so eventually they'll go away
I wish I could wish
But even then I wouldn't get that kiss
The kiss I remember from the near past
Remember our lock of lips and how long it lasted
Your charm and sweet inner self
Made me realize what love's about
Mistakes, tears, happiness, lies and pain
But never did I know love was a game
So today I think I love you
Tommorow I know I love you
And if eternity was complete
I would still love you so sweet.