Do I feel pain?
I don't know
Do I feel joy?
I don't know
I know you have left me
Because there was another
Now it may sound like you were cheating
But you were not
At least that's what you said
You also said you would always love me
But if you love me
Why did you do this?
You said you needed someone
To be there with you
I was there for you
Even though I was only there in words
I could not be there in person
Because you were 20,000 miles away
We were so close to each other
We shared secrets no one would know
We were always honest to each other
That's why you told me you were leaving me
For some other guy

Don't you know how much that hurt me?
Don't you know you broke my heart into a million pieces?
Now I can't even hold a knife anymore
I can't hold anything sharp anymore
I am afraid I will cut myself
And bleed to death
I can barely hold this pen in my hand
I am afraid I will cut myself
Still it is blunt
And so is our love
If you can leave me
For something you may not even believe in
Then our mutual love has ended
I would like to think our love is worth a tad more
If you can leave me for something
you might not even believe in
And still say you love me
It was never really love in the first place
But I still love you
And now I hate you
Because you left me

But do I feel pain?
I don't know
Or do I feel joy?
I don't know
But I know I love you
No question about that
Do I write this poem out of hate... or out of love?
I don't know