by Shavonna L. Truitt
There's a dark, sad part of me I wish I was free of.
I wish I could fly above like a beautiful turtle dove.
I'm tired of being sad, tired of being mad.
People look at me and say, "oh, life's not that bad,"
but it is for me 'cuz my life can't be the way I want it to be.
All I want is to one day be happy;
I wanna feel love and not have it taken away.
I wanna be able to walk outside
and the clouds not be gray.
I wanna feel the love of a person
that would stay and never leave me stray.
What I wouldn't give to wake up
in the morning and know my life is worth livin'
and not even think about all the bad choices I'm givin'.
There are times when I'm so sad
that I wanna do things that are bad.
Like cuttin. ma throat or hopin. I choke so I can float.
Sometimes that's my only hope... to excape the hurt on this boat.