I CHOKE ON MY WORDS
I SPiT WHEN I TALK
I MESS UP OUR TiME TOGETHER
I TRiP WHEN I WALK

I SAY THE WRONG THiNGS
AND REGRET WHAT I'VE SAiD
I'M SORRY I'M STUPID
I NEVER MEANT WHAT I SAiD

YOU KNOW YOU'LL GET OVER iT
YOU ALWAYS DO
BUT WHY WON'T YOU JUST ADMIT
THAT THE WHOLE THING BOTHERS YOU

YOUR SUN OVERIDES MY BiG DARK CLOUDS
YOU TAKE THE PAIN AWAY
YOU TELL ME I'M BEAUTIFUL 
AND I ROLL MY EYES
YOU PUT YOUR FINGERS THROUGH MY HAiR

YOUR TOUCH iS SO GENTLE
I COULD CRY FOR DAYS
WHY CAN'T I DO THAT FOR YOU
YOU MAKE ME LAUGH
I CRY SOMEMORE

YOUR EYES, 
     YOUR SMiLE,
          AS BEAUTiFUL AS THIS PRECIOUS PIECE OF PAPER
YOUR CURLY HAIR MAKES MY FiNGERS SMiLE
I NEVER WANT OUR TIME TO END

YOU KiSS ME
  CARESS ME 
AND IT'S GREAT
BUT WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL AS IF
IT'S TOO LATE.

OUR FINGERS LOCK
OUR BODIES TOUCH
BUT WHAT DO OUR HEARTS DO?
GOD, THIS IS JUST TOO MUCH.

I TELL YOU I LOVE YOU
ALL THE TIME, IN MY MiND
YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND
AND YOU WERE SO HARD TO FiND

I WONDER WHERE THIS TAKES US
HERE ON 'OUR' QUEST
          ASK ME TO MARRY YOU
I BET I'LL SAY, YES

YOU TAKE ME
YOU NEED ME
AS WELL AS I DO YOU
YOU BLOW ME OFF 
YOU STAND ME UP
WHAT DID I DO TO YOU?

YOU ACT LIKE YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME   
YOUR BODY TELLS ME OTHERWISE
WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ADMIT
THAT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU
AND YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME

YOU DO YOUR THING 
AND PARTY ON
I WISH YOU THE BEST OUT THERE
I TOLD YOU I WAS LEAVING
BUT DO YOU EVEN CARE?

I TELL MYSELF I'LL CHANGE
         YOU
  FOR THE BEST
WHY CAN'T WE JUST GET OURSELVES TOGETHER
AND PUT THIS WHOLE THiNG TO REST

MAYBE YOU'LL CHANGE
MAYBE YOU'LL BEND
BUT WHY DO I GET THE FEELiNG
THAT WE'LL ALWAYS JUST BE FRIENDS

PERHAPS IT COULD ALL BE DIFFERENT
IN ANOTHER LIFE
BUT I CAN'T HELP THINK
THAT MAYBE IT WOULD CHANGE YOU
JUST WALKED UP TO YOU
AND TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU


I wrote this poem about my good friend, Josh 
who meant the world to me. I'll never regret getting to know him, 
but I hope I never experience anything that hurtful again.