by Julie Ann JeWeLs
I don't know why I sit here
and wait for you to come around all the time,
when I know that I'm just going to get hurt again!
I wish I didn't keep on just letting you use me,
because I know you are.
I want us to be together in a relationship,
but that's not what you want.
I don't understand why
everything always has to be about you,
and never about me.
Why can't you see that it's not okay for you to hurt me?
I wish I never had given in to you
and done what you asked,
but I really wish that I hadn't wanted
to do it at all.
I wish you could see all the pain you put me through,
but you can't.
I wish I could say that I didn't love you,
but then I would just be lying.
I wish that you didn't know
that I would do anything for you,
even though you still hurt me.
I want to be with you,
but I know that it will never be,
because all you want from me is to use me
for what you can get from me, at any time you want it.
But most of all, I wish that I wasn't so stupid
as to let you keep on doing it!
That is what I wish for!