I?m so confused in this world of mine
Sometimes it seems like I was never meant to be
I cry at night for my mind to live in peace
For my mother to want to love and hold me forever.

I pray to God day and night 
while I try to figure out where I went so wrong
Was it the drugs or the all nights partying 
that made my mother want to leave?

I cry inside knowing that she caused this pain
How could she let them rape me, use me, and just abuse me?
I?m screaming for answers- can't anyone hear my silent cries?
All I wanted was a mother

To help me with my wedding day and be there by my side
All she did was push me away as if she never even wanted me
Was I that bad to get treated this way?
To get pushed out of this existence like I was another dream

That was not meant to be in her memory...