I'm sorry, 
i love you 
and I'm so sorry. 
You opened eyes 
that were never meant to see. 
You let me taste lips 
that i was never meant to kiss. 
You will always be my Avatar, 
you will always be my Lord, 
but I love you too much 
to lust after you. 

You will forever be 
my messenger to passion, 
and though i will hate myself for it, 
though i will hate you for it, 
i can't let you take me there, 
i can't let you kiss me, 
i can't let you hold me 
when it makes me feel so much, 
when i know that it's only for tonight. 

I'm sorry, 
I love you, 
and I'm so sorry. 
You came to me, 
you let me seduce you 
with little more 
than a few unspoken words, 
and, yet, you seduced me in silence. 

You kiss me, 
do you kiss her like that? 
No, don't answer me, 
answer yourself. 
You say my friendship 
is important to you, 
but you can lie to her, 
can you lie to me? 
I'm driving myself crazy, 
I can't eat, 
can't sleep, 
can hardly breathe. 

I'm sorry, 
I love you 
and i'm so sorry. 
i didn't mean for any of this, 
i didn't mean to hurt her,
i didn't want to hurt you, 
and still... i don't 
want to let you go, 
i don't want to push you away,
God knows i don't have the strength 
to deny you. 
My Avatar, 
My Messiah, 
I am sorry, 
I love you 
and I am so sorry.